Forgetful

 I’ve always known Bryson was my soulmate. It was nothing like in the books or movies. It was very scary. I was in the middle of an “episode.” Drs call it PTSD, but it’s really more of a heightened state of awareness, in my opinion. I can feel and sense the spiritual side. I chased Jeremy in every dream I remember about him besides the first until 2019. I caught him and had the worst night terror complete with a visual of a major apocalypse going on in dream realm.

Ever since then I’ve had a few more extremely real night terrors. They were very vivid.

It was 2020 and I was still detoxing off of methadone, so before June.

We were here at the trailer. John Zelmer was out in one of Lyle’s old cars. Our place was like a home for mentally disabled and I know Reza, Jessie, and Bryson were here.

I was underneath a table talking to a Dr. Who had glasses and dark hair when the whole scene changed. The walls melted like I wason acid and the Dr was actually Bryson. He kept making me forget that I was critically injured. I have a birthmark on the top right side of my head and it's a quarter sized bald spot. I've never had any hair grow there my entire life. 

I had been shot right there and I was trying to hold my skull together. I was being carried out and Bryson was standing over me, just like he was at Drea's in Jan  2014. He kept making me forget what was going on. Then I'd have a distant memory and try to feel my head. It's like he hypnotized me.